Sunday, May 1, 2011
Proof Positive :)
This is the pink blossom that came out on Easter Sunday. Thank You, God, and thank you, Mom.
Solo Mama
Solo Mama
Sometimes I miss being married. I miss having a best friend who is also my husband, and I miss walking the dogs with someone who loves them as much as I do. I miss cooking together and I miss the familiar camaraderie that we shared most of the time. I didn't expect it to end when it did, or how it did, and I am still learning how to adjust to being a single mom again. The whole solo mom act is one with which I have some familiarity. I was, after all, a single mom for quite a few years before I married again. I thought it would be harder going back to it after having a little married time under my belt again, but I was wrong.
This time around, I am enjoying it more, somehow. Maybe it is because my three girls are older. Maybe it is because I have drawn so much closer to God and to my faith in the wake of my marriage break-up. Maybe it is because being alone is easier when you're older and more confident in who you are and what you are about. I don't know, really. I just know the girls and I are having more fun this time!
We call ourselves "Team Reames" and we are pulling together to form a cohesive front. On our recent trip home to GA to visit family, we sang oldies, country and rock, and we turned the radio up as loud as we wanted (Dave would never have gone for that...he was a die-hard Metallica fan!) and we laughed and danced in our seats, and when we stopped for lunch or at rest areas, we took time to talk to each other and walk the dogs and just hang out with each other.
At one point, I looked at my girls in the car with me and my heart just opened up a little bit more than usual. They are each so startlingly lovely. Zoe, with her heart-shaped face and sweet smile...Chloe with her deep dimples and impish grin...Caroline with her intensity and wisdom beyond her years...they bring so much to the table. They bring me hope, a reason to make my life a great place to be, and the energy I need to re-invent myself yet again.
Dave is gone and so is my marriage, but life is still rich and full of surprises, and I know that going solo, once again, is only the beginning of a brand new adventure for me and my three girls.
Sometimes I miss being married. I miss having a best friend who is also my husband, and I miss walking the dogs with someone who loves them as much as I do. I miss cooking together and I miss the familiar camaraderie that we shared most of the time. I didn't expect it to end when it did, or how it did, and I am still learning how to adjust to being a single mom again. The whole solo mom act is one with which I have some familiarity. I was, after all, a single mom for quite a few years before I married again. I thought it would be harder going back to it after having a little married time under my belt again, but I was wrong.
This time around, I am enjoying it more, somehow. Maybe it is because my three girls are older. Maybe it is because I have drawn so much closer to God and to my faith in the wake of my marriage break-up. Maybe it is because being alone is easier when you're older and more confident in who you are and what you are about. I don't know, really. I just know the girls and I are having more fun this time!
We call ourselves "Team Reames" and we are pulling together to form a cohesive front. On our recent trip home to GA to visit family, we sang oldies, country and rock, and we turned the radio up as loud as we wanted (Dave would never have gone for that...he was a die-hard Metallica fan!) and we laughed and danced in our seats, and when we stopped for lunch or at rest areas, we took time to talk to each other and walk the dogs and just hang out with each other.
At one point, I looked at my girls in the car with me and my heart just opened up a little bit more than usual. They are each so startlingly lovely. Zoe, with her heart-shaped face and sweet smile...Chloe with her deep dimples and impish grin...Caroline with her intensity and wisdom beyond her years...they bring so much to the table. They bring me hope, a reason to make my life a great place to be, and the energy I need to re-invent myself yet again.
Dave is gone and so is my marriage, but life is still rich and full of surprises, and I know that going solo, once again, is only the beginning of a brand new adventure for me and my three girls.
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